To Rebbetzyn

I was going to address my thoughts in a comment, but I think this will be long enough it deserves a post of its own.

Duram8r:

Thank you for taking the time to comment on my blog and to try to clear up my possible misunderstanding of your position.

Perhaps I'm missing your point, but the only link I find between your views and the Christian views which I referenced is that both show an intolerance for the beliefs of others. Although there are antisemitic Christians, Christianity itself is not antisemitic. Nor do I find Reform or Conservative Judaism to be antisemitic. Choosing not to affiliate with Orthodox Judaism is not inherently antisemitic, it is simply a difference of opinion. I'm sorry that you seem to view it otherwise.

I'm not sure what you mean by Christians "claiming to be Jews and being threatened by and hating authentic Judaism"...I assume you are referring to the Christian claim that they have replaced the Jews as the "Chosen people," which I have to admit seems to me to be a usurpation, along with the Christian claim on the "Old Testament." However, I can assure you that most Christians do not even give thought to authentic Judaism, much less take the time to feel threatened by it or even less, to hate it. I'm sorry that your experience has led you to feel otherwise or to feel the need to lash out at such believers.

I agree with you that my soul-searching will ultimately lead to my acceptance of Judaism or my choosing to live under the Noachide commandments. As much of a struggle as my search has caused me thus far, believe me I don't choose the "easy" path. I'm afraid I don't understand what you mean by "the lek lekah that must be done on some level." My only knowledge of Lekh Lekhah is as the Torah portion, and I'm not sure how you apply that to this discussion. I'd be happy to hear more if you're willing to explain it.

As far as your reference to loss of soul, I went back to your original post and read this along with the portion I quoted, which make more sense together:

I feel deeply saddened that the midah kneged midah of every
self -hating / self- ignorant Jew
that gets sucked into xanity produces an equal and opposite effect is inflicted on Non-Jews
they have secular/Self hating Jews con them into false conversions.

By this I assume you believe that G-d is taking souls, measure for measure? For every Jew who becomes a Christian, a Christian/gentile becomes conned into a false Jewish conversion which does not bequeath them a Jewish soul? It's an interesting way of looking at things, but if G-d were working measure for measure, wouldn't He want to give a Jewish soul to those former gentiles in order to fill the place vacated by a Jew converting? Or do you mean that the "self-hating Jews" who are not Orthodox purposely make false conversions in order to strike back against those who converted their fellow "self-hating, self-ignorant" Jews to Christianity?

I will be the first to admit that I have a great deal to learn, and I certainly don't understand everything I come across. Thank you again for making the effort to help me see your perspective on this.